Sunday, July 1, 2012
My contribution in Danica's book on the Frida Kahlo theme.
I tried a self-portrait, as most of Frida's paintings are self portrait illustrating her sorrows, pains, questions... with greenery around, like she also did in her paintings.
It must be one of the most difficult paintings in my life!! I never did a self-portrait and find it doesn't quite looks like me...
My right hand side is colored, and my left hand side is black and white. It must be because I sometimes feel incomplete. Sometimes, not the whole time, because I am smiling anyway and it doesn't make me feel unhappy. Mostly frustrated or melancholic sometimes, and it questions me. I am 40 now and my biological clock ticked away my possibility of having any children.
From my belly grows a tree of endometriosis.
Especially the media and community that makes me feel like an incomplete woman because I don't have any children. Women are supposed to have children, don't they?
But I'm a happy woman anyway and there's soooo much to do in this world to make it a nicer place for other people's great children to grow up :-)